We’ve had to make some tough decisions recently about the care of this little one.
She’s been in a nursery who – quite unintentionally – aren’t helping her find her strength to fly.
We’ve found her sat alone in tears, come home reporting having been in tears, having been shouted at, confused about why she’s being taught that boys and girls are different and speaking on adult themes too old for her to understand.
I – maybe naively – didn’t see the separation between boys and girls, black and white, rich or poor growing up.
It just didn’t seem to be an issue in our home despite my, and my sisters, experience of racism, bullying and separation. I had never placed people in categories different to my own – human – and I pride myself on upholding that today despite my feelings one way or another on any individual.
Yet my three year old is being taught that girls are superior to boys and whilst I’m all for the rise of the feminine, I also don’t want my little girl to be pushing her Papa away because he’s a boy which I’ve witnessed and can only presume is as a result of comments made.
My mind races to the years to come, if these beliefs are upheld, of the separation, the apprehension, the fear of men that could come and that I’m sure you’ve experienced as much as I have.
So we’ve made the decision to pull her out of the nursery she is in because I don’t want her to be taught separation, or absorb the opinions of people who quite frankly I feel should be more responsible with the children in their care and conditioning their young hearts and minds.
But it’s been tough.
Thinking about her upcoming education and whether to school, un-school, home school, alternative ed., every option under the sun and discussing what we want for her, what would give her the very best balance of life and learning and encouraging her self exploration, love and curiosity over being categorised herself and pressured to fit in and it’s felt like a ton weight on my shoulders.
I guess all we can do is follow our instinct, our hearts and our best intentions.
We’ve all suffered living in a world that constantly tells us who to be, what to think, how to feel, what to buy and how to fit in so I want to encourage her to stay as much of who she is for as long as I possibly can.
And if that means looking at different options than mainstream education then I’m all for it especially as she tells me on a weekly basis that she doesn’t want to be like everyone else.
I’m new to this journey so if you have any experience of home schooling, world-schooling, un-schooling or alternative education I’d love to hear your story. Pop me a comment below.